bathroom break boss?

This is not a video post but fuck it.

Today I was present but at the end I was mad. Mad because I wanted to do better. Mad because I still compare myself to others. Mad because I wanted to give up but knew that from now on I can never ever do that. Even think of doing that. Well I can think about doing it for maybe 5 seconds. or maybe i can give up. maybe I can throw it away. but what else would I do? Seriously? Mailman? I have considered it.

Everyone is different. Everyone has their own vantage. the world is so big. there are SO MANY PEOPLE. fame? what is fame? what is success> dedication? hardwork? struggle? growth? money? what is skill?talent? being alone? why do i feel alone. why do i feel kicked down. by who? who did it? it was me? it was my drive telling Me i have to be better? it was my ego getting in the way of my inner self and telling it that other people were better? it was my imagination? should i go buy something? should i plod along alone and learn this? who else is there? who else can give me the answers? no one. just me. yes i can see the answers through other people and their experiences, but only in my eyes and heart and touch and smell and heart can i truly understand it for myself.

is this growing? learning? stretching....graduating? taking a jump? being mid jump? all of everything above and all else the pertains to these previous word descriptions? present present moment moment keys keys keys board board board board

a new man everyday.

be a new man everyday

you are a new man everyday

i am a new man everyday